Suicide Is Painless

Maedhros belongs to J.R.R. Tolkien. Special thanks to LydiaB for her beta help The title is borrowed from Marilyn Manson.

For Vladazhael

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With my brothers, allies, and desires gone, I embrace the scorching heart of Arda and hold it close to mine, for within its ever-blazing core I seek hope and deliverance. I let it burn away my remorse and the bitter remembrance of my grave and unpardonable deeds. As my exhausted, forever-marred body turns to ashes, I feel the power that rekindles my spirit and raises it to a sublime state of purification and forgiveness.

Have no fear, stranger passing by. Dry your eyes. The hissing flames cannot harm me. Nothing is more elemental for the son of a self-consumed fire.