Life is a journey, a path on itself...

In my own quarters down on Raxior I searched the Holonet upon background information upon my mother; Allandra had been her call name by life, Allandra Chu’dan. I accessed accounts by overriding security codes. The files of my mother seemed deeply hidden in the security network of the Hapes. Allandra had been around twenty when she gave up her life as Hapan noblewoman to travel with my father. Before that my father Ben had left the Jedi Order of his father. To search in the past of Allandra was exciting and I went on. I discovered finally her file, but it carried a scalene, banished for life and death. Leaving the Hapes Consortium was forbidden. The computer searched in intelligence files and showed up on the monitor a long list of operations with destinations. Some names called up forgotten memories, Allandra had been hunted her whole married life by assassins. That was why my parents lived only onboard a ship. In the files were also the names of the assassins and the person who had ordered those assassinations. It was a woman’s name.
I let the computer make a search to the person behind that name. I discovered then I had secondary family in the Arabanth system inside the borders of the Hapes Consortium. My mother had two older sisters, who had become powerful women in the last twenty years and two brothers. Allandra had been the youngest child. I took it they knew about me, but what they knew I had no idea about. The contactor woman was my own grandmother; she was still alive and not yet very old at the age of seventy. I had a lot of nephews and nieces. On paper I drew a family tree who all were and how they were connected. My grandmother was the matriarch in the family. Sinkor and Kalan were my mother’s brothers and had done their best to father daughters to the family. A’kan and Deneyo were her sisters. Both women had daughters too. The sons were off no worth in the family. I knew one and other about the culture from the Hapes. There was one proverb among the Hapans: "Never let a man become so deluded as to believe that he is the intellectual equal of a woman! It only leads him to evil." Reading that angered me really, because it reduced me to some second level citizen inside the Hapan Consortium. Here among the Imperials it was opposite and it was reason I felt rather at my place among them.

Except my warrior grandmother in the Hapes I had no other grandparents anymore. My father had been born when his mother had passed into her forties, making her an old woman of sixty when Ben became twenty years of age. He had been in his twenties when I came into this universe. My mother was deseased, buried on a backwater planet somewhere outside the Hapes Consortium, where most space travelling people could bury their relatives in this part of the galaxy. I was present when my father and I buried there, under an unknown name. I knew to find her grave, but if it was still there after twelf years I had no idea. I hadn’t been there since the funeral. My night went over for me without much sleep. A long time I stared at the screen on my terminal going through the pictures of my secundary family, faces I knew now, but not the persons behind it. A’kan had been one of the contractors , who had hired assassins for my mother. My youth had been a crusade in finding the murderers to my mother. Ben had been ruthless. Only then I hadn’t known who they all were, neither had my father. I remembered him looking into systems for finding clues, but was always locked out, because he had no clearance. Something that I had now and made use of it. Maybe I should go to the Hapes and see someone of this family, see what they would think of me…

The next morning I had to teach two classes, but I was tired and the practic I had had in mind for them, was replaced for something calmer. It was not bad, because it was raining outside and none liked to get wet. With them I discussed today personal material, that of their families. What to do in dire circumstances and you heard that your family was kidnapped and threatened to be killed? What would their actions be? I wanted to know how they handled such a situation, because orders were orders and had to be followed. For myself it was also interesting, because I viewed also my own emotions in such a situation and knew immidiately that I would put my family first. It was something that my father also had done. He had my example on that subject. Yet I didn’t tell that to my students. I had to educate the rules of the army, not my personal ideas. After my lessons I was updated with the last news inside the academy and learned that Macey had talked with the admiral and head of this institution.
I saw her back in de evening; she hadn’t much to say to me. What she needed to know, she had learned and with it she could return to the Republic. I was a bit disappointed that she wouldn’t share with me what she had learned exactly. So I went out to find my own information and that was not so hard. There was a report from the admiral to High Command about the meeting with the Jedi. The suspicions of the Republic ran quite high and Macey seemed have asked what the Empire was planning and if it would not danger the pact that existed between the two nations. I knew I could get questions and that doubts could begin to rise about my integrity. I know it was inevitable, one moment people with the Force were trusted, the other moment crumbled. My path was a dark road and I had no idea how I would ever escape from it.

I placed both my elbows on the table and let my head rest on my hands. The prospect of the future wasn’t a sunny one and it clouded my mind considerably. I didn’t want to face that my integrity was questioned. Doubt was on my mind, not sure what would come from all of this. The Force would tell me when there was danger, but there was no danger now, only the quiet of the night. Macey was vast asleep. So I was all alone. I used the time to find more information and accessed secretly the highly sensitive files of the Republic Senate. Some chairmen had sent mails to each other about the Empire and their suspicions. From one of them came also the wish of an investigation. My involvement in the Empire was a high issue among them. I noted it in the back of my mind, so I would remember when more meetings were planned and I would find out about them. It was an interesting development.